How can you embrace the future if the past is your present?

I just finished looking back on past blog posts and looking at other peoples' Facebook pages and blogs. I have to say that once again, it has hit me how much people are changing these last couple of months. I don't know if it's for the better or the worse, but one thing's for sure... everything is changing and I really haven't adapted to it. As much as I would like for things to be the way they once were, I don't think it'll ever happen. It saddens me.

I've never seen you happier

Congratulations James on your acceptance into the Biomedical Laboratory Technician program at Dawson! It was such an amazing experience to be there as you opened your letter, I'm so proud of you!

75 days.

Unnatural Feeling

I've been staring at my keyboard for the last five minutes trying to think about how to write this. It's almost impossible to describe an emotion when the feeling cannot be expressed.

I feel sad, disapointed but occasionally content. I try and disregard the negative but somehow I feel it lurking in the background. I keep pushing the thoughts away but the more I neglect it, the more reoccuring they become. I have days when I am extremely happy with the way things are, and others where I feel alone.

Why is it that, when you're around me I am at my happiest but when I'm not around you, you can feel that same emotion? Weird.

We all have separate lives, although we fit together like a jigsaw puzzle. I just hope that due to life's unexpected nature, I won't lose a piece.

Spick and span!

So my room is nice and clean now! It took me literally all day yesterday to do it, but 4 grocery bags full of garbage and 2 for the recycling, and I am done! It is always so much fun to go through old stuff... I definitely got a good laugh last night when I came across some lost treasures:

- a lamenated picture of Mel Pels and I, dressed up as Spice Girls for a Grade 4 show at Edgewater
- old photo booth pictures
- a note that Selina and I passed around, talking about how James liked her and Jess but they both didnt have feelings for him! Oh how things have changed...
- old mixed tapes and cds that I had made
- my Edgewater yearbook
- an old project on Polar Bears that I did in Grade 3 and got A+ on
- numerous letters from Melissa Tamilia (my Winnipeg buddy)
- a bunch of dried out smelly-markers
- old diary entries
- a very old agenda that Maria and I used when we would play School or House. I apparently was a lawyer at some point too because I have jotted down how much I was charging people for different legal situations, haha!
- old concert tickets
- metro and bus transfers dated back to 2004
- movie ticket stubs (from movies as old as Bring it On! haha)
- very old bright blue nail polish
- birthday + holiday cards

Who knew that cleaning could be so amusing

What a nice day!

It's so beautiful outside and although I am not outside to spend it in the sun, I am having a good day indoors. Today I decided to take advantage of my day off to finally clean my room in it's entirety: draws, closet, desk, shelves! Everything that can hold and contain more of a mess! Being a pack-rat, it's always good to do this every once and a while... especially to get rid of the stupid Maxi promotional t-shirts that they give us (I got rid of 12 just today! I had one for every occasion and color of the rainbow!)

Other than that, I am having fun just dancing and singing around in my room and being a total goof ball in front of Janna- poor thing has a ped-day today and has to endure my excessive energy.

Anyway, back to cleaning and dancing to the Black-Eyed Peas' new hit "Boom Boom Pow." hahahaha! The sun makes me happy!

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"Sipping wine, killing time, trying to solve life's mysteries."
It amazes me how the simplest things in life can supersede most extravagent situations. How common interests and values can bring together a group of people. How after all of these years, we still fit together so well. Thanks for making me smile.

This feeling never gets old.