Unnatural Feeling

I've been staring at my keyboard for the last five minutes trying to think about how to write this. It's almost impossible to describe an emotion when the feeling cannot be expressed.

I feel sad, disapointed but occasionally content. I try and disregard the negative but somehow I feel it lurking in the background. I keep pushing the thoughts away but the more I neglect it, the more reoccuring they become. I have days when I am extremely happy with the way things are, and others where I feel alone.

Why is it that, when you're around me I am at my happiest but when I'm not around you, you can feel that same emotion? Weird.

We all have separate lives, although we fit together like a jigsaw puzzle. I just hope that due to life's unexpected nature, I won't lose a piece.

Spick and span!

So my room is nice and clean now! It took me literally all day yesterday to do it, but 4 grocery bags full of garbage and 2 for the recycling, and I am done! It is always so much fun to go through old stuff... I definitely got a good laugh last night when I came across some lost treasures:

- a lamenated picture of Mel Pels and I, dressed up as Spice Girls for a Grade 4 show at Edgewater
- old photo booth pictures
- a note that Selina and I passed around, talking about how James liked her and Jess but they both didnt have feelings for him! Oh how things have changed...
- old mixed tapes and cds that I had made
- my Edgewater yearbook
- an old project on Polar Bears that I did in Grade 3 and got A+ on
- numerous letters from Melissa Tamilia (my Winnipeg buddy)
- a bunch of dried out smelly-markers
- old diary entries
- a very old agenda that Maria and I used when we would play School or House. I apparently was a lawyer at some point too because I have jotted down how much I was charging people for different legal situations, haha!
- old concert tickets
- metro and bus transfers dated back to 2004
- movie ticket stubs (from movies as old as Bring it On! haha)
- very old bright blue nail polish
- birthday + holiday cards

Who knew that cleaning could be so amusing

What a nice day!

It's so beautiful outside and although I am not outside to spend it in the sun, I am having a good day indoors. Today I decided to take advantage of my day off to finally clean my room in it's entirety: draws, closet, desk, shelves! Everything that can hold and contain more of a mess! Being a pack-rat, it's always good to do this every once and a while... especially to get rid of the stupid Maxi promotional t-shirts that they give us (I got rid of 12 just today! I had one for every occasion and color of the rainbow!)

Other than that, I am having fun just dancing and singing around in my room and being a total goof ball in front of Janna- poor thing has a ped-day today and has to endure my excessive energy.

Anyway, back to cleaning and dancing to the Black-Eyed Peas' new hit "Boom Boom Pow." hahahaha! The sun makes me happy!

Untitled

"Sipping wine, killing time, trying to solve life's mysteries."
It amazes me how the simplest things in life can supersede most extravagent situations. How common interests and values can bring together a group of people. How after all of these years, we still fit together so well. Thanks for making me smile.

This feeling never gets old.

"I'll bring the candy, and the Kleenex!"

I can't wait for this movie
(WARNING TO MELISSA, DO NOT ACCIDENTALLY PRESS PLAY UNTIL YOU HAVE FINISHED READING THE BOOK)

My Sister's Keeper

I always have a good time with the ladies ♥

~MEMORABLE QUOTES FROM THE MOVIE MONSTERS VS. ALIENS~
The Missing Link: [about Susan] She's speechless!
B.O.B.: She?
Dr. Cockroach Ph.D.: Yes. We are in the prescence of the rare female monster.
B.O.B.: No way! It's a boy; look at his boobies!
The Missing Link: We need to have a talk.

The President of the United States: Boys, set the terror level at code brown, 'cause I need to change my pants.

B.O.B.: I think he sees us, you guys.
B.O.B.: [to alien robot] Greetings! How you doing! Welcome! We are here to destroy you!

Gallaxhar: Quadrant four? Lame.

B.O.B.: [after catching Derek] Derek, You're a selfish jerk, and guess what? I've met someone else. She's limegreen, she has 14 little chunks of pineapple inside of her and she is everything i deserve in life! I'm happy now Derek, without you. It's over!

B.O.B.: What happened? Did you find a jar you couldn't open? What was in it? Was it pickles? Where's the giant jar of pickles?

The Missing Link: No monster has even gotten out of here.
B.O.B.: That's not true! The invisible man did.
The Missing Link: No he didn't. We just told you that so you wouldn't get upset.
Dr. Cockroach Ph.D.: He died of a heart attack twenty-five years ago.
B.O.B.: NO!
The Missing Link: Yeah. In that very chair.
[motions towards an empty chair]
The Missing Link: He's still there.

A Thought.

After having a late night phone conversation, I was quite pensive while I was lying in my bed.

I was thinking about happiness and about its importance in our lives. Everyone thrives to be happy, and will go to great lengths to achieve such a feeling. What we don't realize is that it's not something that you can create, but pursue. At the end of the day, we have to look back on what makes us happy and what gives us that euphoric sensation and continue to do just that the following day. It's a simple concept when you think about it... do what pleases YOU.

"Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right? You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period." - Will Smith as Chris Gardner, The Pursuit of Happyness